Sunday, January 13, 2019

And Now For Something Completely Different

My style for erotica is a unique as the journey I have taken, and I don't expect all of you to get it or to be pulled into my world by the words that I write.  For those of you who are however yanked out of your comfort zone and down the rabbit hole of my
desire, I look forward to feed back and messages regarding your thoughts.  Perhaps you will even come to open up in time about your own experiences and together, through our mutual respectful sharing, we can help to normalize the sensual side of our human nature.  The time however for dragging out the inevitable has passed so without further delay,
the intro to...


Sensuous Spirituous





Your energetic presence caresses my soul causing a quickening of my heart; I feel into the energy of the moment and my chest tightens, my throat constricts and my heart begins to pound…

You are here, when only moments before you were a thousand miles away…

The impossibility of the moment skitters across the surface of my awareness and as quickly as the thought comes, it is gone, lost in the sensations of this now.  I find myself wanting to delve into the externalization of this new and unexplored internal flame that burns within in me yet I am frozen and unable to respond. 

A thought comes to me… 

Caress my skin and I might melt in your arms; caress my soul and my heart will surely melt into yours…

So begins the dance with the non-physical…

Sensation is ALL…

Eyes half closed, drowsy… lips slightly parted. 

The air becomes still and the muted flickering light of a nearby candle dances in anticipation of your imminent arrival.

It’s the heaviness I feel that lets me know you are here; the weight of a presence near me, around me, in me, that pulls the breathe from my lungs.  Frozen, waiting; this is where I will remain as long as you are with me.  Hovering on the brink of something intangible and unknowable.

A sharp intake of breathe and a slow release.  All my desires and dreams caught in my throat, suffocating me.

This is what I crave; the crest of the wave, the peak… hovering at a height unreachable by human hands, a height from which I have yet to fall...

My skin tingles eagerly accepting the caresses the night air offers.  My breathing slows and my eyes close… My back arches and I offer myself to the emptiness.  A sigh escapes my lips… I can feel the weight of you upon me and for just one moment I forget myself and reach my hand out to you…
It drops to my side as the feelings continue to wash over me, wave upon wave of sensation…
A thousand finger tips lightly stroke my flesh, a thousand lips caress my body with breathe…
A thousand hands manipulate and massage my arms, my hands, my calves, my thighs…
so I exist in a world of sensation, floating in a sea of anticipation, unshed tears of joy and release shining in my eyes…

you keep me there, refusing to release me…. Floating, reaching…
and this is only the beginning……




Sensation is ALL… and out of the deepest recesses of our being comes the ability to physically manifest that sensation in others  simply through the offering of passionate love; a love that when shared, given and received, openly and freely, has no boundaries.  Be it by thought alone or words carefully chosen and tenderly shared; what is this new power we possess, from where does it come and how can we explore further our uses for it???

Can you lay still in the solitude of your room and feel my fingers lightly brush your lips? Can you sit in the musical wilderness of Mother Nature and hear my laughter tickle your ears as I dance through the wild flowers to the beat of the hummingbirds drum?

Is it of a new understanding of sensuality and connection that I speak or of an ancient one? Did our ancestors not know the truth of these things, were they not able to be apart from their loved ones for months, sometimes years at a time and still yet be a part of their lives?  When you speak of dreams, do you speak only of those you are willing to share with others or do you speak of those you would not dare reveal to even your closest companions?  If all is Spirit and Spirit is all why do we deny the possibility that our bodies, restricted and tethered to this reality such as they are, are merely one aspect of our being; and if this is true then may it not also be true that once a deeper connection is made between two souls, then could the bodies perhaps become a barrier to the sharing of that connection?

Think of me, open your mind to me, feel me, see me…

Lay back now, close your eyes…

Know that I am there and that though your mind may at first deny it, the feelings that overcome you are real; ride them as they flow across your being, allow yourself to rise and fall with them, feel them crashing upon the shore of your current understanding and tell me truthfully, do you wish to continue to  accept the limits of this physical being or do you embrace the freedom of that which has no limits.
It’s the difference between the stark biting cold of a midwinter’s eve and the sweet scented warmth of a maple wood fire.

You can try to compare the two but it would be brutally unfair to each individual and unique sensation do to so.  One offers a glowing comfort and the other demands and intense awareness of the senses.  Neither can fully described as they both encompass the entire physicality of the being, soothing or assaulting both your inner and outer being.  Both are easily recognizable sensations and both carry with them an attachment to memory and often times to emotion.  Both are physical sensations caused by a thing you cannot touch, or see but can certainly feel... it is the feeling that makes it real, the sensations that remind you in each moment that you are vibrantly and unmistakably alive.

Such has been my experience with deep profound human connection over a distance and as odd as that may at first sound, as unrealistic as you may think the idea for the moment to be, the opportunity is there for those who wish to go beyond their current knowing to explore this unique form of the sharing of love. 

Think of the infinite possibilities of such a connection, and be aware also of the dangers.  Just as the physical act of making love may become addictive to some so too might the blissful floating feeling of teetering on the brink of ecstatic release because this is the key to this particular experience; there is no explosive release of physical tension, only the  low vibrating hum of sensation.  It is the ebb and flow of a gentle tide on a sandy beach, not the crashing tidal assault on a rocky shore.
Yet it is powerful, it is wonderful and it is easily attainable and accessible for those of you who are more than causally connected to the lovers in your life.

So what is it??? Is it a trick of the mind??? Does the belief in the connection between to lovers trick the mind into thinking that it can actually feel the presence of another or does the energetic connection between two people who are deeply in love allow them to share in one another’s physical experiences?

There are so many questions around this rarely studied and even more rarely written about phenomenon that it is difficult as to know where to begin. 

Perhaps it is best to begin by sharing one of my own experiences in the hopes that the warning it contains will encourage you to approach this subject with a little caution.  It is, to use a much over used expression, not for the faint of heart; in fact the stronger the heart the more powerful the connection and therein lies the possibility for discomfort. 

Many years ago I stumbled upon a young man with whom I was deeply connected on a spiritual level and though it was impossible for us at the time to be together physically I was well aware (thanks to the teachings of my rather adventurous first love) of the potential for us to be together on an energetic level despite our necessary physical separation.  So the experiments began, and certain times of the day were set aside for our meditative connection across the ocean.  The more we played in this shared energy and the more we shared each day our experiences from the session before, the more connected we seemed to become.  Well into the first month of this new relationship we discovered that we were now   Fascinating to say the least and so we willingly and eagerly opened ourselves up more to this connection allowing it to become a daily part of our lives.  Until that it is we realized that it had also become intrusive and potentially dangerous. 
occasionally sharing each other’s more potent thoughts and emotional responses to the external world we were each experiencing in our respective day to day lives.

The day in question began like any other day would typically begin with him tucked away safely in a  back corner of mind, my awareness focus  On my way out the door of my apartment there was a suddenly painful burning in my left arm as if I had been stabbed with a blade that was twisted as it was embedded into my flesh.  The intensity subsided but a low burning remained to the point of being uncomfortable for driving.  Naturally I was confused and as I had a ways to go to my destination I set my mind to pondering the cause; it did not take me long to realize that perhaps the source of the pain was from the other side of the world and so I immediately pulled over to give my love a call.  As it turns out, he was working out and had torn his bicep at the very moment I felt the burning in my own arm.  The story unfortunately did not end there, as he had a friend visiting him at the time who was listening to our conversation and not believing a word, and who, as most of us would not doubt do, decided to test the theory out on his own terms. 
ed mostly on my actions yet still picking up on his shifting emotions.

Not two minutes after I had set the phone down and pulled back out into traffic there was an incredibly intense agonizing jolt of pain shooting up the arm that was holding the steering wheel; the car jerked left and I recovered just in time to miss taking on a tractor-trailer head on.  I pulled over again and picked up the phone intending to unleash all the fury of both heaven and hell on this fool of a man for playing with my life only to find out it was his fool of a friend who, not believing my loves explanation, had punched my love right in the spot of his injury to see if I would feel it. He then watched my love carefully to make sure that he was not able to somehow text a message to me to tell me what had happened, which of course my love never did do as he was at the time doubled over in pain.  Shortly after the issue was put to rest and the theory, having been proven true to us at least, was accepted as a simple truthful fact of what was.  We did learn a harsh lesson however and quickly realized that allowing ourselves to walk around completely open to the energies of the other was also putting us both at risk and so learned to control the flow of feeling and emotion.  Eventually as life took us in different directions, the connection was severed by mutual respectful agreement that having as old lover tucked in the back of your head might not exactly be conducive to the positive growth and development of a new relationship.

So how does one stumble onto such a unique form of love making???

I guess it begins at the core of ones being, for I, as I am, am an extremely sensual being.  It is the sensation of things, the feeling and the emotion an experience coaxes from me that fascinates me.  I also happen to love people, deeply and profoundly.  Although over the years I have had some temporary strictly physical relationships, it is the ones that pulled at my heart and ignited my soul that I remember and cherish the most.  For me the sharing of love goes far beyond the physicality of this human experience and having lived for many years in the knowing that some spiritual connections go back centuries, even in some cases, beyond millennia, I also live with the knowledge that spiritual essence of us is what creates our physical experience.   That being the case, why would we then rely strictly on the physical to express that which our inner being wishes us to express?

Granted, I encourage the embracing of the physical experience as it is ultimately why we are here, the spirit made manifest into the physical so that it might find new ways to express itself. And I would not rob any individual of the intense experience of physical lust or the heat of a lovers passionate embrace.  Physical love has its place in our world as surely as any other form of love, without it our race would not exist as it is only through the joining of the physical being that we may bring forth into this world the blessing that is our children. 

There is much joy to be found in physical intimacy, be it purely an experience born out of lust or be it born from a deep emotional attachment; there is, I will admit, nothing quite like laying peacefully in the arms of a lover…

But what if that lover is taken from you??? What if the world and all its complexities pull you apart???

We live on a vast and diverse planet that we, as human beings, are on a soul level driven to explore.  We live our lives in a state of constant motion, moving often times not so gracefully from one experience to the next and sometimes those movements take us away from the immediate physical presence of those we love and cherish.  And so our desires are left unsatisfied and we linger in a state of hunger for the familiar touch of the being we love.  It is a hunger that often time drives us into the arms of another; for is not human connection something we all crave?

It is this connection that I have sought out in a multitude of different forms over the years, many, benign in nature and safe to publicly share, I have openly written about, many more, complex and explosive in nature that I have yet to share. 

The idea for Sensuous Spirituous was born out of my experiences both with physical and energetic love making; a concept that as I said, I have rarely heard about nor seen honest and authentic expressions of.  I began it years ago, after a brief but passionate encounter with an ancient friend of mine who found his way back into my life via our mutual work with the spiritual teachings of Jeshua.  Sadly, it is on the other side of the ocean that he currently resides and so distance was a challenge that needed to be overcome. Still the pull to explore each other in the physical was strong enough to make our connection too painful to maintain and without his willingness to dive fully into the realm of shared energies I opted to pull away.   Regardless it left me with a vivid reminder of what is possible when and two of like minds/hearts come together and it is with that knowledge in mind that I desire to openly explore the potential in these pages. 

Never fear, I am still very much in touch with the physical and as this story begins to play out it will be in the realm of the physical that we will initiate our hunger game.  I don’t however intend to shackle myself with merely that which you may find comfortable, in fact it is my desire to push to boundaries of your awareness and to take you places that you have previously only dreamed of being.  Of course, without your full participation, this simply cannot be so I urge you…

Think of me, open your mind to me, feel me, see me…

Lay back now, close your eyes…

Know that I am there and that though your mind may at first deny it, the feelings that overcome you are real; ride them as they flow across your being, allow yourself to rise and fall with them, feel them crashing upon the shore of your current understanding and tell me truthfully, do you wish to continue to  accept the limits of this physical being or do you embrace                                                                  the freedom of that which has no limits.


                                   Niki Norlock - author of Truth - My Synchromystic Journey 


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