Tuesday, September 29, 2015

My thoughts on Gravity and The Wetness of Water

I recently got myself involved with the comment thread of a post that I quite frankly had no business being involved in… My ‘need’ to comment was due to my desire to share my observation that one of the people on the thread was in constant contradiction of their own statements… it was a fascinating display of ‘I am right and you are wrong’ so I chimed in with…

 'I consider myself to be a Gnostic Theolalite, I believe that everyone should have the freedom to:Do whatever they want, worship whatever they want, believe anything they want, so long as it hurts no one else and they don't force their views on anyone else.' - your words... perhaps it is time to reflect on why you are so determined to force your personal view of religion on the person who posted the original video. Granted this is none of my business but I just wanted to point out that your constant contradiction of your own words leads those reading to question the validity of anything you say which in turn reduces the impact and the power of your argument. Perhaps if you could find a way to remove the obvious emotional attachment you have to this issue then your reasoning would be more clear to others... as it stands, it is quite evident that your anger outweighs your logic, which is I'm afraid, not the best place to begin when trying to get your point across.

Monday, August 3, 2015

Stop it... you ARE NOT helping people... you are HURTING people who are already hurting enough...

I was so annoyed that the video quality is absolute crap but there was no way I was going to record it a second time… Not only am I tired of seeing so called ‘healers’ preaching this particular topic but I am also tired of this idea that all our video’s and personal sharing’s need to be perfectly polished.  I am NOT perfect… and thankfully I will NEVER be perfect (at least not in the eyes of humans) and since only spirit’s opinion really counts, then I guess it’s perfectly ok for me to continue being perfectly imperfect.
Anyways the short version is, yes I know the video’s quality sucks but the message remains important enough to share it regardless and so I have.  As to the long version of how I feel about this topic, I imagine I will respond either by video or by blog to any outcry that may arise from this but allow me here and now to be perfectly clear on one thing… YES – the mind can heal… absolutely there is NO doubt about the power that the mind has to heal the body – however, there is a time and place for the utilization of those teachings and they are teachings that need to be introduced slowly and practiced diligently and with expert guidance in order to be fully effective.  They will never heal a person who is not absolutely convinced that they work, so to tell the mainstream public simply to think themselves well is absolutely ludicrous without the support of several other healing practices thrown into the mix; including diet, lifestyle and yes, even medication (when it is needed).
Any healer worth their salt will approach each new patient on an individual basis and structure their healing program around the patient’s needs and understanding of how the world works.  If your so called ‘healer’ is telling you that they have ‘ALL the answers’ get a new healer… in fact do yourself a favor and right from the start build yourself a healing team.  You’ll be able to know which ones are the fakes simply by the way they respond to the video below; maybe that will help you decide.
And to those so called healers out there that are spouting this nonsense, please stop… you are making a bad name for authentic health and wellness practitioners who have dedicated their lives to studying the healing arts.  You are not helping – you are hurting and it’s time to stop. 

Sigh… Ok – written rant over – now for the badly filmed video rant – enjoy…




Niki Norlock, author of  Truth - My Synchromystic Journey



Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Launch of the new Beafibrofeenxrsing Truth Talks video series

So it's May 12th and it's that time of year when we gather our forces and shout loud and proud that we have Fibromyalgia... Of course it's all about awareness and it's important to have a day that we can dedicate to educating the public on our need for both support and a cure.

My question is, why is it only one day... Why is it that we choose to hide our illness the rest of the year - why do we put on fake smiles and pretend that we aren't hurting?  Don't you think it's time to demand our right to health and happiness?  I do... So today I am releasing the first of a new video series called Beafibrofeenrising Truth Talks... A Candid exploration of what life is like with Fibro - an honest sharing of my own personal experiences with the disease.  Along the way we will explore all the different elements that need to be addressed in the journey back to health.  I hope you'll join me on this adventure so that we can come together in solidarity of our right to live normal, pain free productive lives.




Niki Norlock, author of Truth - My Synchromystic Journey

Sunday, May 10, 2015

A Mother's Day Tribute to a Fallen Fibro Warrior

For years I’ve hated Mother’s Day…

Even though I myself am a mother and recognize that it is a day to honor those who hold our future in their hearts and hands by caring for and loving our treasured young, I simply have not been able to find it in my heart to celebrate.  I’ve been too angry you see… Too angry at my mother for passing away when I was only in my late 20’s, too angry that she passed away from something that could have easily been avoided and much too angry that she passed away on the one day that a mother is NEVER supposed to leave a child; Mother’s Day.

I used to joke that it was her way of insuring that I never forgot the day, all my life I have been horrible with remembering dates; I can’t count how many times I forgot her birthday, mother’s day and my parents anniversary.  It seems callous and cruel that I would speak of her date of departure so casually but I needed some kind of emotional defense against the very real and only deniable to myself fact that I was well and truly pissed off that she would dare abandon me so soon.  Yet this year I decided to look at it in an entirely new light, this year as I move towards a lifetime of working with women who like my mother (and myself) are fighting the good fight against the disease called Fibromyalgia, I will use her passing in May as a shield and a sword that serves in the fight for health and wellness. 
So she passed away on Mother’s Day, that means she passed away in May only a few days before what is now an extremely significant date in my world; May 12th, International ME/CFS & FM Awareness Day, a day when Fibro Feenxs around the world spread their wings and rise from the illness ashes.  I wish she’d had the opportunity to do that, I wish that back in the day, when she was diagnosed that people understood what Fibromyalgia was but the truth is they didn’t and it was that fact more than anything that resulted in my mother’s untimely demise.  Of course she did not die from Fibro directly, nobody ever does… Yet it does kill… It kills some people through the effects it has on their emotional state, leading to deep depression and occasionally suicide.  Some people (like my mother) die a much slower and uncomfortable death as their bodies systematically shut down from abuse of prescription pain killers combined with alcohol and other medications that are utilized in the never ending quest to ease the pain.    

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

The Madness MAKING of CFS/ME

Guest Blog - written May 2, 2015 






Dr. Nancy Klimas, an expert in ME, CFS, and AIDS, was quoted as saying, "A CFS patient feels the same or worse than congestive heart failure; the same or worse than late stage AIDS. If I had to choose between the two illnesses, I would rather have H.I.V. "





Not to say that it's easy having AIDS either, but CFS/ME (and Fibromyalgia) does not get the credibility for the seriousness of how deeply those afflicted suffer invisibly, or the understanding of how insanely hard and challenging it is on a daily basis with very little relief that goes on year after year into decades. And for many of those years and decades, I only lived with "it" and didn't have a name for this invisible torment that no words can describe as I was left for dead by the medical community.

I kept quiet and tricked people for too long about this and now I am finally being honest; being honest to give voice and validation to so many of us as we have hidden in shame and confusion. But now it's time to get real. Talk about it. I downplayed it for decades and used every device available (healthy and not so healthy) to cope to appear "normal" and capable to get through social situations, relationships, careers. But the wheels always fall off in each endeavor because I didn't have a clue of what was happening to me. So, I tried to positively think myself better, along with years of much trial and error in everything holistic (as the medical community has no answers or help) and blamed my supposed personality or thinking defects. There is so much oppression around these chronic toxicity illnesses (like Fibro, MCS, Lyme, CFS)  that is trying to shame us into silence. No more. Time to bring awareness. Time to be courageously truthful.

Monday, May 4, 2015

Guilt Kills - Self-love Heals

One of the most daunting challenges that those with ‘invisible’ chronic disease face, is that of emotional well-being.  It might be assumed that this is due to the stress of living with constant pain and fatigue, or even because of the lack of support and understanding; while these issues certainly factor in and do need to be addressed during treatment, there is one emotional stressor that is often overlooked.  For many who live with diseases like Fibromyalgia, there is a nasty emotion that gnaws away at the spirit and destroys an individual’s hope for a brighter pain-free tomorrow.  In time the harboring of this emotion can cause deep and unrelenting depression.    The truth is guilt kills…

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Be Actively Com-passionate…

I had the most interesting conversation tonight with some truly remarkable women…

A group of women who for the moment don’t know each other very well, in fact some may never meet in person yet they share a common bond.  They all have a desire to love and support the women they meet along the road of life and they do it in a truly passionate way.

What was interesting about tonight’s conversation was the question that was posed at the beginning that brought forth a whirlwind of insight and wisdom.  “What does compassion mean to you?”

Saturday, April 18, 2015

The Fibromyalgia Lie...


It’s the blank stare I get when I say the word ‘Fibromyalgia’… That’s my answer to my good friend’s (soul brother, really) and fellow film-maker’s heartfelt plea of, "Why didn’t you tell me?"
A couple weeks ago, he asked me an extremely personal question regarding my health; it turns out that a close friend of his a young vibrant woman was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and, in his conversations with her about her challenging new reality, he had the unfortunate epiphany that another of his close friends was suffering from the same symptoms. So, he asked the question, and in alignment with my desire to always tell the truth, I caved and confessed my health care sins… Yes, I have a disease; it’s called Fibromyalgia and this is what it does…